"Nothing of me is original. I am a combined effort of everyone I have ever known."

I'm up late thinking again, even though I have to be up at 6 tomorrow morning. I don't think I'm going to be getting any sleep tonight.

I was chatting with Alie and she mentioned how she was a perfect mix of both of her parents, not just look-wise, but personality-wise as well. It got me thinking about my parents and how much I'm like them, and you know what? I couldn't really think of anything. I remember my dad telling me about how much I'm like him in that I feel the need to see the world and how I never asked my parents for permission to do anything. I just told them I was doing something and I would do it. I know that he's right but it makes me kind of sad that I can't think of anything else. I also thought about how much you learn from friends and other people you know. They teach you and inspire you and it's really very strange to sit back and think about how your life would be if you had never met certain people. It's almost impossible, really. I can't even picture what I'd be like.

Then, there's music. What kind of person would you be if you had never heard of your favorite band, or any other band or artist that has truly inspired you? I can think of several bands that have really helped to mold me as a person. I think that must be the best part for any musician; to not only have people love your music and to relate to it, but knowing that you have really changed somebody's life without meaning to. I wish that I could meet all of the artists that I've looked up to since I can remember and really let them know how big of an impact they've had on my life. I think that would make me sound slightly creepy, though.

I feel like I had more to say but I can't remember now.

Oh, I just watched The Notebook for the umpteenth time. It's so inspiring and the perfect movie to watch when I need a good cry.

"To die would be an awfully big adventure."

Well, it looks like I'm one of the last people to jump on the blogging bandwagon. I never knew what to blog about before. I never found my life to be interesting enough to share with the world, but after talking to several friends I figured that this would be a good place to share my ideas and inspirations instead of keeping them locked inside my mind, and at least this way I can hope to get some sort of feedback from other people. So, here we go.

A week from today will be my twentieth birthday and that scares me more than it should. Twenty seems so old to me. I remember when I was younger, I would daydream about how I would look like when I was twenty and what I would be doing with my life. This is not to say that I am not happy with the way that things turned out. I go where the wind takes me and I usually make my best decisions on a total impulse - I've never been one for thinking things through very thoroughly. This has always worked for me, though.

I was thinking of making a new list of goals to accomplish by some set time, but I realized that following a list would not be any good for me. You never know what the future entails and everything is subject to change quicker than you know it. I have my dreams and that's all that I need.

This entry was pretty much one big, pointless ramble. I hope someone out there finds this entry even remotely interesting, even though technically I'm not blogging for anybody else aside from myself. I also decided that I would post something that I found inspirational in every entry, or something that reflects my mood or a situation that I am in. I can't find anything more suiting than the trailer for the 2003 version of Peter Pan. The original version has been one of my favorite movies ever since I was a little kid, and I really enjoyed the remake.